I seriously think I hate Zero. I really really do.

I've done nothing but think about him everyday for the last year. I've had a crush on him, and it' s been bugging me to tell him how I feel. And just when I think I'm getting somewhere, he drops the ball on me.

First of all, he broke my heart. Hard enough to deal with.

Second of all...for the way he's put me through the wringer, for being such a good "friend" that he says he is, what with his "morals" and shit...what a fucking hypocrate.

I don't know if I can be friends with him anymore if he is going to treat me like this.

I feel like he deceived me. I feel like he led me on.

I thought it hurt when Jacob and I broke up. I thought it hurt to deal with it when Dan started dating after we broke up.

This has got to hurt the worst of all.

He has the balls to tell me, "This has nothing to do with lack of chemistry." And then be all, "Oh, well I'm VERY happy with my girl now."

FUCK YOU, ZERO. I HOPE SHE BREAKS YOUR HEART AGAIN. I HOPE YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH A LOT MORE SHIT THAN WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH BEFORE BECAUSE I'M NOT SURE I WANT TO BE THERE FOR YOU TO CRY ON MY SHOULDER WHEN IT ALL GOES WRONG AGAIN. I'M TIRED OF BEING THE ONE YOU GET ALL FLIRTY AND AFFECTIONATE WITH. I WILL REFUSE TO LET YOU HUG ME OR TOUCH ME EVER AGAIN. AND BELIEVE ME, I AM GOING TO TRY TO GET EVERYONE IN CAST TO GO AGAINST YOU BECAUSE YOU HAVE WRONGED ME AND HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A WOMAN SCORNED. AND WHEN SHE DUMPS YOU AGAIN--AND BELIEVE ME SHE WILL--I HOPE IT HURTS YOU LIKE IT'S HURTING ME NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!